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I am not bound to win, but I am bound to be true. I am not bound to succeed, but I am bound to live by the light that I have. I must stand with anybody that stands right, stand with him while he is right, and part with him when he goes wrong. - Abraham Lincoln

First let me begin by saying that I hate hurricanes. Hurricane Ivan decided to miss Orlando but headed straight for Pennsylvania. If it can't get me it'll get my home. The flooding in PA was very extensive. Thankfully my home and the homes of those I hold dear were all spared. However there are some towns where it will take them years to recover from this. Hurricane Jeanne had decided to go ahead and hit Florida in pretty much the same areas the last ones hit. This hurricane season is the worst the state has seen on years. With 2 more months to go in the season I'm sure we'll get a few more.

Jeanne would be the first storm where the Rangers did not have a gathering. We all did our own thing. It seems to me that we are hanging out a lot less - or maybe it's just me. Maybe I'm just not hanging out with them as much. I dunno. Sarah and I are on the mend. However, Rachel never seems to make progress in bettering her relationship skills with people. Civility is all it seems she will be capable of receiving from people. In example: Sarah had a birthday party at TGI Friday's for her 20th birthday. There was a large group of us there. Everyone was having a good time; or so we thought. Rachel stated she was bored and wanted to leave. That was the third time that she had stated we were boring and wanted to leave the "event." Only this time it was someone's party. How immature and rude can someone get? Other than that Sarah's party was a success. She had a good time and people showed up. I made the cake. The cake itself turned out well. It was very good. The icing was too thin to actually decorate with so the decoration was limited. Then Wal*Mart being the wonderful place it is did not have fresh produce so I was forced to buy frozen strawberries which also did not work out so well. Everyone enjoyed the cake though, which makes me happy. I'll just have to concentrate harder on the next one and be sure to have all the right stuff and that my icing turns out better.

The time I am spending here at the Walt Disney Resort is getting harder and harder to endure. I find myself often toying with the contemplation of going home early. I feel so disconnected from everything. I am afraid then when I go back home that nothing will be the same. Eight months is a long time to spend away. It is plenty of time for things to change and evolve. The longer I stay the harder it will be to go back home in January. For a few reasons. One being that I won't want to leave everyone. But a big one being that I am starting to slowly suck up what funds I had in the bank from back home. This internship doesn't pay very well. So by the time January comes rolling around, I may not be able to afford to leave simply because I won't be going straight home to a job and without the ability to save up some for cushion purpose, it will be rough. I won't ask my mom for any help, nor will I ask anybody else. I got myself into this and I will get myself out. Some days I can feel myself starting to regret the decision to do this but then I just think about the opportunities that I have been given. I am meeting people from all over the world that I would not have met, otherwise. I am thinking that a huge problem is that I need to see home for a few days to refresh me. I miss home and I miss the people back home. I've not spoken to any of them in a while, since Hurricane Ivan, anyway. Where is everyone? Got phone? Three more months... three more.