Friends of Life

Friends come and friends go. Friends give life and friends die.

Today was a day if supreme bittersweetness. Early this morning I was told that a friend from high school was killed in a motorcycle accident yesterday evening. Kristen was one of the most genuine people I know. She was kind and compassionate. The world was a better place for having her and a worse place for losing her. Kristen -- you will forever be remembered and loved by all who had the pleasure of knowing you.

I then had to leave to run some errands. While out and about as I traveled down a side road in Clarion I noticed a girl standing on the curd waiting to cross the street. From afar she looked familiar and as I got closer I saw that it was indeed a friend from high school. She was wearing some odd uniform for a gas station. I just passed silently.

While I was out running my errands and attending an appointment, I ran into McDonald's to grab a large number two when I heard someone say my name. I turned around to find a friend from high school who had just give birth to her second child since graduation. Though grieving for Kristen I couldn't help but to be happy for Jess. She, herself was so happy.

Life is so full of irony but it takes the situations that really slap us in the face for us to notice how ironic life truly can be. In matter of 24 hours I felt the beginning of a death to a friendship as I felt the urge to revitalize lost ones. Then I feel the death of a friend and the joys of parenthood of a friend all the while noticing and old friend along the side lines watching as my life rolls along. We don't always have the time that we think we do. This just strengthens my point that people need to start reconsidering where their loyalties are within relationships; start swallowing their pride before their pride swallows their friends/family. Don't let your friends slip to the side lines. You need more players on the field than you do cheerleaders and spectators. I guess it's time for me to do a role call once and for all.


(This song just fits so much in many different ways.)
~*~My Immortal~*~

I'm so tired of being here.
Suppressed by all my childhood fears.
And if you have to leave,
I wish that you would just leave.
Cause your presence still lingers here,
and it won't leave me alone.
These wounds won't seem to heal,
this pain is just too real,
there's just too much that time cannot erase.
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears,
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears.
I held your hand through all of these years.
But you still have...
All of me.
You used to captivate me by your resonating mind,
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind.
Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice has chased away all the sanity in me.
These wounds won't seem to heal,
this pain is just too real,
there's just too much that time cannot erase.
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears,
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears.
I held your hand through all of these years.
But you still have...
All of me.
I tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone.
But though you're still with me,
I've been alone all along.
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears,
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears.
I held your hand through all of these years.
But you still have...
All of me.