Hating It

"Trials, temptations, disappointments -- all these are helps instead of hindrances, if one uses them rightly. They not only test the fiber of a character, but strengthen it. Every conquered temptation represents a new fund of moral energy. Every trial endured and weathered in the right spirit makes a soul nobler and stronger than it was before." -James Buckham

I hate my job. No, let me rephrase that. I love my job, but hate the location. Perkins itself is not the greatest establishment to work for, I've noticed. The corporate office keeps passing these rules that just irritate the workers and in the long run debilitate their ability to function to their their fullest potential, thus causing a bad guest experience. It's dumb. The company seems to be digressing in some of the smallest of areas, but with the quantity of small things that there is it's enough to weigh. Then there's the individual restaurant ways. This particular one is frighteningly unprofessional. We have a money making restaurant, therefore you'd think they'd spend some money on fixing the place up and updating to make production easier and faster, but no. The management wants to maintain that status so she spares no expense. Instead she duct tapes everything. Lights are taped into the ceiling! It truly is a hazard, lol. There's other things as well. I think this has officially become my most disliked place of employment. But we'll stick it out until the end of the summer or so.

Now here's my question for myself. Why is it that it seems so bad? There are two options. Is things truly that much worse there than anywhere else? Or is it that after Disney it just looks that bad? I would have to say a little bit of both but probably more so that things are truly just that out of control there.

Let mm just give you a brief view of how country my area is. There is a Protestant church in town that had fish fries for Lent. Uhm- hello - Protestant's don't celebrate Lent. Stupid. Just another way to feed the cheap trash and get them to come to church. The there is the pizza shop. This one is good. In the Pizza shop window is a bear. A real live dead bear that the owner shot and killed then had stuffed. Now it's all displayed in the window. It has a little wooded scenery so it looks all themed and pretty while it's proudly displayed. Nothing like dead bear fur in your food. Stupid. I could go on but those are the two things that just peeved me the most at the moment. lol. Maybe I'm just being stupid about it, but it bugged me. haha

Better

"Do not falter or shrink; But just think out your work, And just work out your think." -Nixon Waterman

Yeah, what he said.

About work. It's going well. Today was my official first day out of training and I did superbly well. Much better than I thought I was going to do. Let us hope that tomorrow goes just as splendidly. I keep making this money and I'll be a happy little critter.

About school. Let me just say this, it's about damned time. IUP had finally gotten it's ass in gear and got things done. Today I was able to reschedule for summer classes and start getting my stuff in order for the fall semester. So that's on the up & up.

In my last post I mentioned not feeling well. I'm still not feeling at the top of my game but I'm feeling better. Daniel knew I was feeling like pooh so he came up to see me. That was nice. But now he's not feeling well. =o(

And that's all I got today. More tomorrow.

Picture

I just wanted to share a picture.


Mickey in the parade.

Feelin' Icky

"When we long for life without difficulties, remind us that oaks grow strong in contrary winds and diamonds are made under pressure." -Peter Marshall

I've not posted in a few days. I've not been feeling well. To be honest I feel like complete pooh. I'm so not the biggest fan of being ill. I get sick very rarely but when I do it's hell for all in the area, lol. I was feeling a little better today than I had been but then I over exerted myself by giving the dog a bath, cleaning my hog sty room, scrubbing the bathroom down and other tedious little things. So now I'm feeling icky again. I'm sure I'll feel ok tomorrow - I hope.

I'm pretty sure I posted about how my kitty had kittens but they all died. Well the other day she came trotting into my room with a purpose in her step. She started rustling around in my closet and in my dirty linen. I knew what she was up to, so I chased her back down the stairs where she gave birth to another kitten. Nearly a week later. We think the other one's were just premature. This one's nice and vital. =o)

Thanks Rob. You're right, to bad we didn't hang out more. Could have been great fun.

I'm going to post a picture that I kind of tweeked a little. It should be just below.

Werkin'

"The aim of an argument or discussion should not be victory, but progress." -Joseph Joubert

I'm so wiped. This past two months of not doing anything has really taken a toll on my ability to cope with activity... lol. Plus, my sleeping habits are off kilter. My time spent in Disney gave me off sleeping times but they went way wrong when I came home. So now all of a sudden I'm working and "sleeping" normal times. My body's putting up such a fuss about it. Then today we were relatively busy at work. With whether in the high 30's (a heat wave) people are venturing out of hibernation once again. In a few days I should be back on a normal schedule.

Speaking of work: It's not too bad. Although the more people I meet the more I'm convinced that Perkins hires the oddest specimens of human life. There are some real weirdos there. However, there are some real great people there as well. We'll see as I meet the rest of the clan. ~Anyway~ I was in training all this week so I was unable to make tips because I wasn't on the server pay rate. I start that next week. Thank goodness. The daily income will be splendid not to mention great. When I served at Eat'n Park I made good money because I rock as a server. From the compliments I'm getting now I think I'll do just fine again.

Hmm... I guess there's not much more to say. Though I feel like I'm forgetting something important. But then I have that feeling 23.5 hours of the day and the other half hour I just forget to feel forgetful. lol.

Ass

"What you can do, or think you can, begin it." -Johann Wolfgang von Goethe

Well... What to say. That's not a question but rather a statement.

The weekend well... Let's just say that it didn't exactly go the way it should have or I would have liked or as planned. But isn't that the way it goes.

An observation I've just recently discovered... I'm an ass and need to work on that.

This job with Perkins is sucking up a lot of my time. lol Which I guess it kind of normal.

Orientation Day

"Our greatest happiness in life does not depend on the condition of life in which chance has placed us, but is always the result of good conscience, good health, occupation, and freedom in all just pursuits." -Thomas Jefferson

Today was my first day of work at Pekins. Yes, that's right, I started work. I had an interview there on Monday and in the middle of the interview I was told that I had the job and would start today. Today was just my orientation day so it wasn't anything great. It seems to me that the place may be run a bit unprofessionaly behind the scenes but I can't say for sure yet. But my guess is that if I'm picking that up just from the interview and the orientation then chances are I'm correct. Of course to be fair I've only dealt with one person because she did both the interview and my orientation. I'll keep you up to date. lol

My kitty, Sarabi, had a litter of kittens yesterday but they were all still born but one, but it died this morning. Sarabi's an old cat, 11 years and this was her second litter. The poor thing. Now she's just laying there. She doesn't look so well. Hopefully she pulls through.

Tomorrow is my second day of work. Right after work I'm heading to Daniel's for the weekend so I won't be posting anything over the weekend.

Anonymous Comment

"Don't waste any time on anyone who isn't willing to waste any time on you"

This evening there was a comment posted to an entry that I posted a few days ago (Dedicated Readers) but the comment is no longer there for reasons I will now discuss. The comment posted had little to do with that particular entry nor did it have anything to do with any entry made since. I think they were trying to comment on my blog in it's entirety, however, they failed right along with their attempt to remain anonymous. The comment made was personal and was a direct attack on my moral and personal character. Here's how they failed to remain anonymous: 1.) The comment left made it clear that person knew me personally. 2.) It was left by someone who obviously felt wronged by me. 3.) My journal happens to log activity, as I have mentioned before, and tells me exactly where the reader/commenter is located at in the country, the time they arrived and departed from my journal, plus numerous other facts. Therefore, I had no trouble at all figuring out the "mystery". I will respect their wishes though and leave them anonymous, since they decided that would like to be cowardly about confronting me.

Now let me discuss the matter of subject which the "commenter" decided to mention. They apparently have decided that the only thing I do in my journal is drag other people through the muck and leave myself unscathed. Anyone who has actually taken the time to read my journal should/would know that the comment is completely unwarranted. My journal not only tells the stories of the issues that I feel others have, it also includes numerous accounts of my inadequacies and failures in a variety of areas. In some of my posts I have directly "attacked" either myself or someone else. However there are many entries that I have posted that neither make reference to myself or any other person. They are strictly posts about something and I never once said that I didn't posses those qualities. Now the fact that this person knows me personally leaves me stunned. They obviously do not know me as well as they would like to. The comment posted is merely an insult to themselves and their definition of "friend". And that's all I have to say about that.

To Err

"Make yourself an honest man, and then you may be sure that there is one less scoundrel in the world." ~Thomas Carlyle

When sitting down to write this post I was thinking it was just going to be another FYI or Tid Bits entry to let the world know how my day went and what happenings I did or did not do. Such as how I changed my blog back to the style I so loved but changed the text style in hopes that it works better or how it's been snowing for 3 days or how I went out and played in the snow today or how we took my brother to the hospital today and other such things. But that's not where I'm going this... not tonight. It's been a while since I last posted something meaningful and thought provoking.

There a great deal of things in life that a person wishes never to encounter and then in turn deal with. One such thing is deceit. Not your average run of the mill lie and cover-up but something deeper and more emotionally devastating. When you uncover a truth that has the potential to destroy everything you've ever believed in, how do you deal with that? Where does on go from there? Do you give up everything you've ever loved and start over with bigger walls and issues? Or do you do the unthinkable and forgive? Yet, there is one excuse that I've recently discovered for a mistake of my own: 'Because I'm human'. Everyone is. Everyone makes mistakes. So now what?